Have you ever felt like a part of you just went missing? In the spiritual community, we call this Soul Fragmentation or Soul Loss. It usually happens when we go through something deeply traumatic—like an accident, a violent event, a bad breakup, or long-term abuse. When the pain is too much to handle, a part of our essence "breaks off" to survive the shock. This leaves us feeling empty, powerless, and like we aren't "all there."
Common Signs You Might Be Experiencing This:
Feeling detached or "numb" inside.
A sudden loss of confidence or personal power.
Deep depression or feeling like you’ve lost your purpose.
Brain fog and trouble making simple decisions.
A constant sense that something is missing from your soul.
My Story: When Work Became a Nightmare
In the summer of 2024, I was very close with my boss, Diega. We weren't just coworkers; we were friends. We shopped together, we went out to lunch together and I even helped with her kids by picking them up at school. As her "second-in-command," at work I did my best to support her and help her lead the team fairly.
Everything changed when I heard Diega use a racial slur to refer to an African American man. Later, she began using more offensive language toward our trans and non-binary coworkers. When I tried to talk to her about it as a friend—warning her that she should not say these things—she grew cold and distant.
Eventually, I realized things weren't going to change, so I filed a formal complaint with HR. That’s when my life turned into a battleground.
The Retaliation
Immediately after I reported her, a coworker accused me of assault. Even though security footage proved it never happened, I was put under investigation for a month. During that time:
My hours were severely cut
I was given the worst shifts.
I was stripped of my leadership role.
Diega told my coworkers to "freeze me out" and stop helping me.
Management and the union ignored my pleas for help.
I felt completely alone. I fell into a deep depression and started thinking about ending my life. I even had a plan and a date set.
The Turning Point: A Dream of Safety
One rainy night in October, the power went out in my apartment. I sat in the dark, crying and praying to God because I didn't see a way out of my situation. Things were clearly not going to change and other jobs did not manifest. I eventually fell asleep and had a vivid dream.
I was standing in a massive house where every room was a different church. I saw a little boy run inside, and I followed him. Inside one of the rooms, a pastor and two kind strangers - an older woman all dressed in white, and a young Latino man with large eyes - told me the boy was safe with them, but he wasn't ready to come back to me yet.
The next thing I recall was a bright flash of light, I immediately woke up, the power had come back on, and the light from my lamp was shining in my face. I realized that the little boy was a piece of my soul. He had run away because he didn't feel safe with me while I was being treated so poorly at work. To be whole again, I had to make myself a safe place for him to return to.
How I Put Myself Back Together
I decided right then to stop seeing myself as a victim. I began a "spiritual deep clean" to call my power back. Here is what worked for me:
Cleansing my space: I scrubbed my floors and walls and used sage to clear out the heavy, negative energy in my home.
Spiritual Baths: I used traditional herbal baths to cleanse myself and strengthen my aura which when clean and healthy acts as a natural shield against negativity.
Energy Work: I performed rituals to balance and align my chakras as well as to raise my vibrations.
Connecting with Ancestors: I spent time in prayer and meditation, asking for guidance from those who came before me.
Inner Child Work: I spoke directly to that little boy from my dream. I apologized for not protecting him and promised that I would keep him safe if he came home.
The Final Healing
Finally, I had a second dream. I was on a flat, endless plain standing before a teepee with smoke rising from the top. An androgynous being came out to greet me. Over this being, I saw two overlapping circles of colored energy—like a Venn diagram. Where the circles overlapped, a bright golden light shone and from that light pure love emanated. They invited me inside to sit by a fire. As they shook a rattle and danced around me, they threw herbs into the flames.
The being eventually took my hand and blew a smoky light into my palm. That light entered my body, and even in the dream, I felt "different." I woke up feeling whole for the first time in months. I woke up feeling completely different. The "void" inside me was gone. I felt whole.
Where I Am Now
Once I healed my internal state, my external world followed. I stopped focusing on getting revenge and started focusing on my own growth.
My spells and prayers started working again because my energy was clear.
I successfully transferred to a new department.
I’ve since received four raises and made wonderful new friends.
I still see my old boss occasionally, but she no longer has any power over me. I am a survivor, and I am finally whole again.
Carolina Dean
Human Be-ing
